PEOPLE OF TUMBLR. YOU GUYS SUPPORTED ME THROUGH SO MUCH. RANDOM NOTES, TUNES, POEMS, THOUGHTS ETC. I NEED EVERYONE OF YOU MORE THAN EVER TO PLEASE GET OUT THE WORD ABOUT MY ELECTRONIC MUSIC PROJECT SKYWALKER. I WORK SO HARD ON IT AND ALL I WANT IS FOR IT TO BE HEARD AND IF YOU LIKE @ REPLY ME AND I PROMISE I WILL RESPOND WITH LOVEEEEEEEEEEEEEY DOVEYNESS <3
CHECK HIM OUT!!!
new skywalker coming soon. Check out my latest remix of Anthony Green’s “Only Love” ft Nate Ruess of fun.
http://www.soundcloud.com/iamskywalker
Its funny how people judge me without really knowing me. They only notice my awkwardness and large stature. They think that’s all they need to know, but what they don’t know is that my dad was in the hospital for 6 months before dying 2 weeks ago. He struggled for his survival, but lost his battle. I have missed so much school because of that and catching up is really hard with 4 AP classes, 2 honors classes, and an advanced studio pottery class. They don’t know that my vase in pottery won a gold key award in scholastics and is currently on display in the Milwaukee Museum of Art. They don’t know that I work 21-24 hours a week, where I work from 5:30 to 10:30 3 school nights a week. They dont know how little sleep you get when you have school, work, homework, and emotion overload. They don’t know how it feels to have the world coming down on them; how it feels to be gasping for air while they drown in a pit of despair. If they only bothered to learn…
I wish I could say that I feel like I’ve lost something, but I’ve gained so much! I haven’t been so happy in a long time. I mean, I’ve been happy, but it was only temporary. Its like he was the anchor of my life, holding me down and dragging me to the bottom. There’s so much going for me now! My pottery pot, “The Beast”, won a gold key for scholastically and is now moving on to nationals, but not before being displayed in a museum for a month. I am also doing amazing at work. My managers trust me so much that they schedule me 23 hours a weeks vs 14 hours a week and are moving me up to the photo department. The customers seem to like me too, commenting that I’m a sweet girl. Well I guess not so sweet, considering I finally told off a girl who had been annoying me at school. I finally had the courage to stand up for myself. So I really do wish that someone who had meant so much to me for 5 years would have left a big hole inside me, but he hadn’t really been a good friend for a few months. Though I do wish him the best! Hopefully he does have a good life if we never reconcile!
When there are people who graduated 2 years ago who I haven’t talked to in months that care more about me than you, then yeah, I’m not gonna like hanging around you. In the 5 months that my dad has been in the hospital, you have never bothered to ask how he is doing or how I am dealing with the situation. A classmate who I didn’t even know very well had asked every other day for 2 weeks how he was and if I was alright. I used to care about trying to be a good friend to you, but not now. Because now I realize that you never put forth that kind of effort to do the same for me.
